Sunday, March 23, 2008

The Pretzel-Stick


Albert Grey was a Pretzel-stick. Much as I want you to like him, I can't lie to you about who Al was. I don't want to deceive you on that point. He was a true-to-life, hits-close-to-home, close-as-you-can-get-to-a-hundred per cent Pretzel-stick and he always stood upright against his front stoop, one leg bent behind the other, a cigar in his hand, up where he lived, below the icy Canadian states.

Now if you were to call an Atlanta man a Pretzel-stick he will more than likely snap you like one. If you call a Raleigh man a Pretzel-stick more often than not he'll give you a smile and ask you if you can spare a nickel for the dusty juke box in the corner. But the place from which this particular Pretzel-stick sprouted is somewhere in between the two-- a little town between two bigger towns that has sat with its eyes half open for a hundred years or so in Traveler's Rest, sometimes shifting in its rocking chair and murmuring something about a limb thats fallen asleep and the blazin' heat that seems hotter than yesterday. It is in this town, one that was named for rest and where the people barely rest from resting, that my protagonist hails from.

Al was born in the trailer on the far side of a big barren lot. It had a mailbox out front, with shells that had been glued to it years ago when his father had taken him out to the sea as a boy. Years ago, this land had been paved and busy, the parking lot of a Wal-Mart but that was so long ago that no one remembered it as they drove past, on their way to the new store in Greenville. But after the concrete was broken up and the grass grew in, Al's mother moved in, raising him within those aluminum walls.

He became thirteen, finished middle-school, wore his hair short, and was afraid of girls. He hated his home where the grass grew high around his front steps and the heat was unbearable as it rose in tiny waves from off the ground, strangling even the earthworms who wriggled free from the dry cracking earth. Sometimes some of the parents of the children in town offered to give him a ride home but it always pained him to direct them into the long broken concrete driveway of the old Wal-Mart, down to where his house sat, slightly slanted into the creek behind it. So he stood instead in that interminable heat waiting for the big green bus to take him home. Occasionally he was even invited to the birthday parties of other children but he found himself with a stomachache whenever he ate birthday cake. After the forth birthday party spoiled by his uneasy stomach, Al spent his weekends teaching himself to identify the constellations, spending every night in an old lawn chair, gazing upwards, letting the sky engulf him.

He became eighteen. The University of Charleston established an astrophysics program and Al applied, finding himself accepted. Fully paid for by the government which had always given his mother so little, he studied hard and well until he found himself an educated man.

After his graduation he came home. He was twenty-one, his small glasses cutting deep red lines into his large face and his suits too small, the buttons constantly sliding from out of their button holes. His tie was an alarming hybrid of glittering satellites and glowing stars, the milky way smearing its way from his bellybutton towards his head in what looked like a yellow-white stain.

In the twilight of one warm April evening after the sun had disappeared over the tallest trees and the day's heat had made everything in the town warm to the touch, he was a plump figure leaning against the shell-covered mailbox, whistling and gazing to the familiar stars above him, recognizing Hydra with her long body snaking across the sky. His mind was working persistently on a problem that had held his attention for an hour. The Pretzel-stick had been invited to a party.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Poker Night


Benji is hosting a poker game tonight. Unfortunately, Ben does not have the cards that are shown above. While I hate the thought of losing my hard-earned money, I understand the appeal. These weekly games, with a twenty dollar buy-in, are a great way for Ben to meet up with his friends. The strange thing is... two of the five men involved are friends of mine from high school. Friends I never thought I would see again. People I never thought I would see across a poker table every Thursday night.

From what I can see, they are enjoying themselves. Immensely. But between the discussion of action heroes and the new corresponding films, I am utterly lost. Why is it that men never outgrow their adolescent fascination with the supernatural? Is it the action heroes themselves: the rippling muscles and the tight outfits? Or is it the power: the laser beams and the speed and the reflexes? And why is it that girls are not as interested? But obviously, this is the same something that attracts men to poker and such high stress games. I do not share the same love for these games, this casual verbal jousting. But good luck to all of them (especially Ben, for I hope his winnings will buy me a nice dinner).

Punks


Ben's cats: Lothario and Renee.
Look at these two. We just caught them playing in the sink and gave them a little talking too.

Meeting Benji


The day I met Benji was not particularly a special one. Come to think about it, I think it had been pretty rotten up till then. Any other night and I would have left the house earlier or I would have passed out on one of the comfy couches. But that night, a cold one bordering Winter, I decided to stay. I sat on the couches for hours, tired from the day and waiting. For nothing in particular. He walked in and stood beside me. I hadn't talked to him for more than ten minutes before I knew that I liked him.

Occasionally, I can't help but wonder why I talked to him for as long as I did, typing my name into his phone. For two more hours, grinning big smiles in response to his grins. Sometimes I forget why I fell in love with him. And then he comes home and flashes a smile. He holds me and I remember.

52nd and 3rd


Yesterday I watched as a girl no older than myself died on the streets of New York. I was stunned. I heard as she was hit by a car and could imagine her mother and sister turn around to find her no longer behind them. I did not see her fall.
She was dead in an instant, her mother and sister beating on her lifeless chest, screaming from where they sat around her on the curb. I doubt it was in the news: I wanted to check but did not have the heart. I did not even have the heart to stand with the gathering crowd, murmuring about the grisly city in which we live, the young life that gets taken unnaturally away.

For one of the first moments in my life, I felt utterly helpless. I could not resuscitate her. I could not comfort her mother and sister. They were tourists. I doubt they will ever return to New York. My heart fluttered, my hands icy and my thoughts swimming. I turned and walked away.

I took a long shower afterwards, in my newly renovated bathroom, suddenly feeling the weight of the water and needing to escape its hot pulsing grasp. I dressed slowly, looking out my open window before napping on my couch, teddy bear in arm: one that was wrestled from my closet shelf minutes before. I needed something to hold. I fell asleep beneath the window, the cooling New York air sweeping my drying hair back and forth across my face. I could not stop thinking about that girl.